Revival Fire - When is it my turn?

I just had a "conference" call after dinner with an old friend in Singapore. Wow. Revival is breaking out back home. She shared about how one of the ministries would be gloriously used by the Lord for His glory in deliverance (and I presume healing). I wish I were back home.

I had my own little "revival" lately. I was reading the book of Acts again recently - the funny thing is, the book came alive for me. I've read this book umpteen times - but this time it's different. I could follow through every single detail of what the author wrote - about Peter, Paul, Barnabas - and I could follow through the entire journey of Paul - and picture it in my mind. It was as though I was watching a mental movie of what was happening during the time of Acts. I was excited. I asked - maybe i'll see this soon. The repeat of the book of Acts - and I can be part of the glorious ministry. Part of me can't wait. Yet another part of me is wagging in cynical nonchalence - "as if that is really going to happen". But for now - faith has won the battle. I believe. I know that I will see it happen and I believe that I have a part to play in the end time harvest. I very much want to serve my Lord with all my heart. It's just that sometimes, my spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. It's not easy - the daily struggle with humanity and humanism from within me. But I know that the Spirit will prevail. I need to feed the Spirit and starve the flesh. It's time for a season of prayer and fasting after the Christmas break.

To be honest, I have stagnated somewhat - too many things have "pulled me down" - as one prophet had spoken over my life. But yet again, this prophet said not to allow these things that have "pulled me down" to affect me in my career path and in serving the Lord. The situation that the Lord had given me, he said was to actually "heal me" and to refocus my direction, that I know that God has bought me with his precious blood and that His will is my focus, my will, my joy. My whole perspective shall change as I focus. Everything I have counted for loss for God, I will gain much more in the kingdom of God. God is pouring healing.

I repeat again. I can't wait for God to work through me, to scrub me clean and to advance to the next level.

But I have to be patient, and wait for God to work through it in His time. In the meantime, I have to continue to wait on and wait for God.

A right time for everything (Ecclesiastes 3)

1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.9 What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth? 10 I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it. 11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.